CHAPTER 45
Blair tried to hide it but she felt low. She knew he stayed back home because of her. There was no begging or asking him to stay, he had to work. And she wouldn’t keep him here just because she didn’t want to be alone.
“Okay. It’s fine, I hope you sort things out at the company.” She said to him, she tried to fake a smile so he wouldn’t feel a certain way.
“Are you sure? Would you be able to take care of yourself alone?” He asked.
“Sure, why not? I’m okay.” She assured him.
Blair wasn’t sure if she was okay but she knew that asking him to stay or begging him to stay was wrong.
“I’m sorry that I have to go. We didn’t plan any of it until this afternoon. I didn’t know I was going on a colleague texted me. I’m sorry Blair.” He apologized.
“There’s no need to apologise beside you have to work and can not keep you from that. I’m sorry if you felt burdened by me all this while.” She responded and apologized.
Maybe he couldn’t tell her because he thought she wouldn’t let him go or she would cry and beg him not to go. As much as she wanted to, she vowed not to.
“What? No, no, Blair. You are not a burden. You are my wife and I will never feel burdened by you. Don’t ever think like that again.” He pleaded.
“Yeah, okay. I’m done eating, I’ll just clean the dishes and continue my book.” She stood up from the chair and packed their plates to the sink so that she could wash them.
“Blair-” she walked fast so that she wouldn’t have to answer him.
Dylan sighed.
He didn’t want to hurt her with the news of leaving for the business trip but it couldn’t be helped. The company was on the brink of losing a major shareholder and since he had other shareholders, every one of them was important.
Losing just one would affect the company in a certain way. And he did not want that to happen.
Blair finished with the plates and she cleaned the kitchen as well. She wanted to release any form of pain or any weird feeling that she felt at that moment.
The house was silent as usual and it was already dark. She thought of asking Dylan to bring back their help so that she wouldn’t feel so lonely every time.
She also thought of doing something with her time, earning money by herself. Blair knew that Dylan would never let her work but she only knew how tired she was of staying home every single day.
She walked the stairs as if she was going to fall off. After everything that was going on comes to an end she would speak to Dylan about it.
Blair took out the book that she started reading days ago and decided to continue. She read the book until she slept off.
Dylan didn’t stay in his office. He was outside, on the balcony. He sipped his liquor slowly and stared at the sky, the sky full of stars.
He so wanted to pick a star for Blair. Maybe then she would understand that she wasn’t a burden. The fact that he stayed with her was his decision. He wanted to, decided to.
The stars made fun of him, they twinkled so brightly that he scoffed.
“Really?” He muttered.
The soft breeze blew his hair in every direction. It frustrated him but he wanted the breeze.
Dylan thought about how his life would be if he wasn’t a billionaire or the CEO of the company. Maybe he would be able to spend more time with his wife.
Learn new things that he wasn’t able to learn. Just be a normal guy. In all that, it was just thoughts, being a billionaire was his reality. One that he had to face forever.
It wasn’t going to change nor was it going to make anything less or more than it was. It was his life and everything about being a Lancaster revolved around it.
Sometimes he wished Blair would understand too.
Blair woke up early the next morning because she slept quite early. She did not have anything planned but as she got up from the bed she decided that she was going to work out.
Dylan was still asleep beside her, that rarely happened.
She got up from the bed anyway, the only thing she wanted for the next three days was to have fun, without Dylan.
During many of his trips, Blair was often sad because she would be left alone at home. Except for the ones that she was allowed to accompany him.
This time she decided to free herself. She wanted to let loose, not think about how sad or lonely she would feel when he left.
Blair also wanted to get rid of the fact that she almost drowned herself in the tub. It began with a bath and then all sorts of things got into her mind. The fear of losing Dylan, of Samantha, winning. She could not stand the thoughts so she wanted to drown.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.
And she almost succeeded but Dylan stopped it from happening. She lied to him about falling asleep because she was wide awake when she attempted to drown.
Caught, she thought.
So she decided to start her morning with a few exercises. She took a quick shower and got dressed in her workout outfit- a sports bra and sports leggings.
She wore her fitness watch, grabbed her phone and ear pods and a small towel.
Blair ran down the stairs and into the kitchen. She wanted to get a water bottle from the fridge.
Sometimes Blair forgot how rich her husband was. She only remembered when they did something or owned something that other people could not do or own.
They had a gym. Their very own gym with high-end equipment. They simply had everything an outdoor gym had. And so no one went to any outdoor gyms.
Blair headed for their gym at the side of the house. It was always kept clean in case anyone wanted to use it at any time.
She went inside and placed her belongings on one of the pieces of equipment.
The sun reflected into the room from the huge glass windows in front. It made the room brighter so she didn’t need to turn on the lights.
Instead, she took a face cap from one of the many caps that they hung on a rack. The sun got into her eyes so she wore the cap for protection.
She decided to use the treadmill first so she turned it on and got on it. After which she opened her music player to listen to some music while she exercised.
Blair exercised for an hour without stopping. She didn’t know where she got the energy from but it thrilled her.