Chapter 105
Belle POV
I don’t know how I will react to what I heard, I know that Gian hasn’t moved on with his ex yet but it still hurts when you hear it from him that he still loves her. No matter what I will do I can replace her.
I noticed that Maxine saw me at the same time as Gian looked at where I was and he called me. I quickly ran away from that unit. I don’t want to look miserable in front of them both.
Before I could get on the elevator Gian had already crossed my arm.
“Let me go, Gian.” I exclaimed.
“No I won’t! Let’s talk please babe, let me explain.”
“What I heard is already clear to me, you don’t have to explain because I understand.” I said weakly.
“You’re wrong in what you’re thinking, that’s not what I mean.”
I looked at him with tears streaming down my face. “I know that you still love her even if you don’t tell me that.” I said.
I saw him shake. “Babe it’s not like that. You’re the one I love.”
“You love me because I was there when you needed someone because she left you and now that she’s back you’ve become confused with what you really feel or who you really love between us. You can come back to her Gian, I won’t mind.” I said.
“I have no plans to go back to her because you are the one I love now Belle, I hid from you that we have communication or I am seeing her because I want to know if I really have no feelings for her and another thing is because of the picture she took the night we were at the bar but I didn’t want that to happen because she kissed me first that night but I pushed her right away. I’m just afraid she’ll send it to you. I don’t want you to think about it that may hurt you.. ” he explained but I feel like I’m numb from the pain I’m feeling right now,
“I know I just borrowed you and she really owns you, it’s already clear from everything I’ve heard that you love me but you love her too. We can’t be together anymore Gian! We’re not toys. When you’re tired of one you will find another one. If you’re having a hard time choosing from us because you think you will hurt me it’s okay, you don’t have to think about the things I’ve done to you the times she left you because you don’t owe me that thing. I did it because I wanted to help you and I don’t want to see you in pain and most of all ruining your life. ” I said while crying.
“B-babe it’s not like that. I don’t have to choose from you because I know for myself who I love.”
“If you knew Gian you wouldn’t have a hard time deciding but no. You still have feelings for her, that’s why you are confused!” I promise.
“I-I know that you don’t love me completely, I know you still haven’t moved on yet but I still took risks even though I knew there was no certainty. It’s not your fault if I loved you more than a friend and It’s not your fault either if you loved me during the miserable times of your life. I know I did my part as your girlfriend, I did everything I could to make you forget her without thinking what if she will come back again. That’s because I love you. I’m the one who was there at times when you need to lean on, I’m the one who was there at times when your life was almost ruined because she left you but it still not enough. I-if I only knew that loving you was very painful I would have just remained your friend. I helped you to stand up again and move on but you crushed me. I make you okay to destroy me. This pain I am feeling right now is killing me.”
When I said those words I started to cry, Gian would have hugged me but I withdrew. I saw the pain in his eyes but I ignored it. I feel more pain now.
“Belle, please.” he begged.
“Don’t push yourself Gian please, I know you’re smart enough to think what is right from wrong. I’ll always be here and support you in every decision you’ll be making. You know that, don’t you? You and Ethan are important to me and if I see you both happy, I’ll be happy too. I love you, I love you so much and I don’t want you to suffer and be hurt, I will choose myself to get hurt than you, the man I love and my friend. You can count on me anytime okay? ” I said.
“A-are you breaking up with me? A-are you giving up already?” he asked me.This is from NôvelDrama.Org.
If he only knew that this thing would not be easy for me but if it would be good for all of us I would. I will sacrifice my own happiness and my love for him just to make him happy.
I stepped closer to him, I touched his face with tears and wiped it. “I love you, I love you so much.” Then when I said those words I quickly kissed him on the cheek and smiled at him for the last time.
We stared at each other in tears and soon I slowly let go of him and turned around but before I could take a step I felt his tight embrace with me.
“P-please don’t do this to me Belle, please don’t leave me. I’m begging you, I can’t afford to lose you. I will be ruined again if you leave me.”
I slowly removed his hands, who was hugging me. I can’t answer his plea because I’m in so much pain right now.
“I’m sorry.” my last words and finally left. I know that after this I will be longer his girlfriend but I will remain as his friend.
When I got down to the building I quickly stopped and took a taxi and went home, I felt like I was a withered vegetable.
When I got home I paid the taxi driver and quickly got out and ran inside the house. When I got into my room I quickly locked the door and lay down on my bed and there poured out the pain I was feeling. .