Chapter 51
Jennie Wilson POV
I returned his gaze, feeling like I’d entered a completely different reality because we stared each other down.
Was he really jealous of Hayden? Will he be jealous if I stay with any boy…… does he like me???
Ayee Jennie…… don’t go there… it’s a dangerous way of thinking! Why would he like me…… he always tag me with numerous insults…… he just want to see me suffer and nothing else.
My mischievous mind suddenly flashed as I looked at Blake. I quickly kept my elbow on Blake shoulder and accessed Vincent’s reaction, expecting him to be jealous.
Surprisingly he looked unperturbed by my action, least bothered to give any reaction as he strode towards us.
I snaked my whole arm around Blake’s shoulder and looked at him, still no pissed reaction, he rolled his eyes as if he knew what I was trying to do.
Why isn’t he reacting…… come on do something!!! Wolf up!!
I removed my hands off Blake’s shoulder but Blake caught it instantly, and I looked at him, appalled by his behaviour.
” What are you trying to do huh?” Blake smirked at me. ” Are you trying to make Vincent jealous?” He laughed at me squeezing my hands.
” No I want him to smash your face angrily, that’s why I did it.” I replied him bluntly and Blake laughed mockingly.
” So childish, it will never happen, he trusts me than any f***ing human being here baby girl! You are already Vincent’s property and there’s no way out.”
I glared at him venomously snatching my hand successfully from him. Vincent stood in front us and my stomach churned with panic and fear.
He just studied me, searching for something in my eyes and he scanned me completely as if he was searching for any injury, can’t blame him too as I was standing with Mr. Volcano and couldn’t predict things.
There was no hate, only insecurity and pain as he looked at me, like he was hurt seeing me in this state.
I averted my gaze somewhere else, my cheeks going red and I had no intention to stay any longer, more I stay here the more the dangerous game we played.
I was about to walk away but my mischievous mind struck again. I faced Vincent this time, looking him directly.
” Umm…… Vincent……” Vincent eyes glazed up, curiously and anxiously, his brow creasing in anticipation.
” He” I pointed at Blake ” He told you are an idiot, stupid guy for falling in love and mocked your true love.”
Blake looked at him in horror, his eyes widened by my words “Whaaat !! …… Vincent I…… I didn’t-” Vincent glared at him completely shocked.
” Oh don’t you dare lie now! Cross your heart and say you didn’t say it come on!” I challenged him.
Blake looked at him, completely distressed as Vincent glared at him. ” Is it true?”
“I …… I… did say it but-”
” It’s settled…… and he said if he would’ve been there story would have been different. Vincent he even insulted HER, saying he would’ve broken Her neck too. Please take care of it! Bye!!”
” What no!!!! Vi… Vincent I can explain!!!” Blake shuttered as Vincent glared at him open mouthed like he couldn’t believe what just happened.
I gripped by bag and started running away and I ran like my life depended on it. I didn’t even dare to look back as I ran quickly.
Take that Blakey !!!!
Vincent’s property it seems!!!
Deal with him, let’s see how trustworthy you are now!!! I internally laughed like maniac as I ran.
As my classes were over way before, I decided to go back to my room. A few threads of an old, dark web caught me, and my smile dropped. Hayden was gone for good and he had all rights to be happy.
The guilt taunted me every now and then, but I quenched it each time, always hoping I would manage to forget Hayden.
These vehement feelings were twisted but addictive-hot and cold and I needed to get my mind off them. I looked around kitchen something to eat, I heard Harper and Rose entering house chirping loudly.
I looked at Harper cautiously and she looked too happy today. I walked towards her and sat beside her.
” Did something happen around you? I mean any interesting going on?” I asked her as I expected her to spill the beans out for what Blake had said.
” Why? Nothing serious happened though. Oh but yeah…… something miraculous happened.” Harper chimed.
” I am listening……!” I shifted more towards her anxiously.
” You know a guy transferred to our section out of no where in the middle of the semester. Guess what…… he turned out be Jisoo’s brother! What was his name…… ah Taeyong!”Nôvel/Dr(a)ma.Org - Content owner.
Taeyong…… Jisoo’s brother…… Blake shifted that guy to Harper’s section…… he can do that???
Of course why not…… he is Blake Parker…… what would you expect. Mr. Gangster! He must have threatened principal to do it……
” He is so handsome, I almost died looking at him! He looks like a manga hero! You know what he sat beside me and asked me for my number too!!! ” Harper chirped like a love struck kid and Rose laughed at her madness.
Only I knew the real reason why Taeyong was shifted into her section, but I was happy that everything was taken care of. Hayden was safe in other country and Lisa got a bodyguard too, what more could I expect.
Vincent Ainsworth POV
I took out my iPhone and opened the Instagram. I stared walking towards the edge of forest sideways this time.
There were many memes and videos of her, of that canteen incident. I clenched my phone with my palm tightly, closing my eyes. I increased my speed of walking, now I started running like an athlete.
* Flashback*
” Blake?”
” Hmmm? ”
” What did you do to Hayden? What happened there when I left with her?”
” What do you think?…… Got rid of him obviously…… isn’t that want you wanted?”
I clenched my fist ” Don’t provoke me Blake…… answer me straightly…… Why isn’t he coming to college anymore!???”
” Well we made him to transfer elsewhere, sent him to the other country, to study in another university.”
Something stabbed my heart, his words rendering me speechless. ” What…?”
” Yeah…… You know he is the son of Xavier’s father’s secretary. Threatened him…… told him not to let his only child mingle with that girl otherwise consequences would be worse. “*
*” Xavier threatened him that he would loose his position in his father’s company. You know fear of status, reputation and money rule any f***ing human being, so he took the bait. “*
*” That kid was acting like Romeo out there in the canteen, but at the end he is just a f***ing wimp, he didn’t even revolt in front of his parents. Best option was to send him out of this country, study somewhere else.” ***
I reached the place where old things were disposed, abandoned by others. I walked abruptly, angrily towards it and took a chair and broke it completely with my leg, anger raising me like ferocious waves.
I took a lamp and with my whole strength I threw it and watched it crashing on the ground.
***” Why did you do that? Why do you had to take things this far!!!?” I grabbed his shirt, my hand shaking vigorously with anger.
” Oh come on Vincent! Why are you behaving like this? I had to do this…… if you are feeling that guilty then tell me if he would have continued studying here, would he live peacefully???
” The stunt you pulled out there…… would he survive further in this f***ing university?”***
I took a cracked vase and shattered it many pieces. The crashing sound giving me life threatening pain and my f***ing mind fed onto it. I held my head agonizing pain hitting me all time high.
” F******************!!!!!!!!!” I screamed out throwing the old things whichever came into my hand.
I did it again!!!!!!
I f***ing did it again!!!!!!!!!!
I pushed away people who didn’t deserve it!!!!!!!
I just destroyed someone who didn’t even do anything!!!!!
I held my head, pulling my hair out, not being able to tolerate the pressure in my head.
That kid Hayden didn’t deserve this, that girl Jennie didn’t deserved it. I brought everyone into my f***ing depressed, disastrous life.
I crashed things, despite the pain I was enduring. My legs and hands hurt but it wasn’t compared to pain in my f***ing brain.
Everything was gray. No color. No sound. No taste. No love. No happiness. No reason for me to live.
If I wasn’t so weak and incapable of taking care of myself nothing would have happened to them, right?
Everyone just deal with my f***ing disorder…… Hayden, Jennie, Blake, Emma, Xavier, Aaron, every single human being out there. I strode towards a tree, anger buzzing my head.
” Why did you do this! ” I hit my fist hardly on the trunk. ” She is not Eva for god sake! Why doesn’t my f***ing brain understand she is not my Eva! Why don’t you leave that kid alone!!” I smashed my fist on the trunk of the tree continuosly.
I hit it again and again, and the close sounds of bones crashing against the tree pierced through my mind and my body, but I didn’t stop, I deserved this.
How could I do this!
Eva has been with me for 8 years and that kid for just few months…… then how could I say those embarrassing things to her!!! I almost kissed her!!!!!!!!
” SHE IS NOT EVA, YOU F***ING PIECE OF SHIT! SHE IS NOT MY EVA!!! ” I hit my fist on the trunk mercilessly, though it’s flakes pierced through my skin, blood oozing out of my knuckles.
” I LOVE ONLY MY EVA AND NO ONE ELSE!!! Why doesn’t my brain understand that???? She is not her…”
I felt the tears welling up in my eyes as I smashed my fist continuosly, and there was nothing that I wanted more than to disappear.
I wanted to be erased magically from the Earth and from everybodies minds.
I burst out crying, hiding my face with my hands. I stared crying heavily, with my heart content, not able to control myself.
It seemed impossible to pull out of the depths of darkness, despair, guilt, rage, and hate.
When will this stop?
How much long I had to endure this?????
How could our inner demons conquer us? Why was happiness too difficult to achieve?
It broke my heart as she accused I stole her happiness…… analyzing each and every word she said.
But it’s too late, everything’s already destroyed now. I wrecked everything before I could realise.
I wasn’t like this before…… I never meant any harm to anybody…… but why I can’t escape from it now?
Maybe the angel kept on dying for too long in the dark. And that’s how the devil was born.
The devil that keep destroying the mind, the relations…… the people around it, all stuck in this vicious loop.
I slid down on the ground, tears consuming my mind and soul. I burried my face on the knees crying heavily.
Jennie Wilson.
Everybody think she can help me with my depression, my f***ing disorder, pushing her every possible way to wherever I would be, to that f***ing university to my house.
She kills me inside, showing me I really worth nothing. Most importantly the Fear.
Fear of abandonment.
Like these things are here…… when they are of no use, just throw them nowhere to be found, untill they decay into nothing. This place reflects my life so perfectly.
When I see her I feel like I will loose again everything, like history is going to repeat again and again till it completely shatteres me into thousand pieces.
Why can’t they understand she can’t repair me…… instead I will be f***ing destroying her. I will completely ruin that kid’s life.
One time I want to scream my heart out to her, run away from me, run very far away where I can’t find you. I will just destroy you and nothing else.