Chapter 199 No Feelings
“Yes.” Esther hesitated for a moment, then walked to the sofa beside him and sat down.
“What did my mother tell you?”
“A lot.”
“Let me take a guess.” Terence pretended to seriously think for a moment, “In addition to telling you to take good care of me, she also asked you to continue to persuade me to go back to City R for a paternity test. Am I right?”
Esther looked at him and said, “She also said that you are not young anymore. It is time to give birth to a son or a daughter.”
Terence smiled scornfully, “Then she asked for it.”
Esther continued to look at him. After a while, she said, “Terence, can I ask you a question?”
“Go ahead.”
“Why do you not want a child?” Esther paused and said, “I had always thought that you felt that we were not close enough and should not have a child so early, but now…”
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Terence asked back, “Why don’t you think that now?”
Now… He had been reduced to such a situation. He clearly knew that the child could help him return to the Gibson Group and did not intend to divorce her, but he still did not want to have a child. There must be another reason, right? At least, she thought so.
She shook her head. “Although I don’t know the reason, I don’t think so.”
Terence turned his head back and said indifferently while changing the channel with the remote control, “Do you really think my current physical condition is suitable for having children?”
“What do you mean?” Esther was puzzled.
“Do you think that I can give birth to a healthy child as long as I marry you?” Terence laughed self-deprecatingly. “Or do you want to see your child be like me, going crazy and biting people suddenly, and even being able to die at any time? Or are you willing to watch your child be pushed aside like me and be talked about?”
Esther looked at him in a daze. She had never expected him to say these words.
Was this the reason why he had never wanted a child? It had nothing to do with her. It had nothing to do with their feelings. What he cared about was that his child might go on his old way and suffer from the same illness?
“Get married and have children. As long as the other party has corrected conduct, everyone is ok?” Terence said.
Esther smiled bitterly. He was right. In any case, his Shirly had left. The remaining women were no different to him. He didn’t care who he would marry and give birth to a child.
And she was one of the thousands of women.
She secretly took a deep breath to suppress the bitterness in her heart. She stared at him again and asked, “Have you asked the doctor? What about Dr. Ross? Do they recommend you not to have children?”
“Most of them,” Terence replied.
Esther nodded and stopped talking. She didn’t know what to say.
What should she do? She had to think about it in her mind. On one hand, Mrs. Gibson was waiting for her to be pregnant and for Terence to go back to the Gibson Group. On the other hand, Terence was worried about the genetic problem. What should she choose?
If it was like what Terence said, his child was likely to suffer from the same disease. Would she still insist on getting pregnant with his child? Probably not.
Terence had just asked her if she wanted to see her child like him. In fact, she immediately had an answer in her heart. She didn’t want that, absolutely not!
Terence looked very painful. She couldn’t imagine how distressed she would be if it happened to her child.
She suddenly leaned forward and wrapped her arms around his waist, hugging him tightly. “Don’t scare yourself. The doctor said that I can give birth to a healthy baby for you, and I will be able to. But don’t worry, I will respect you. I won’t force you if you aren’t mentally prepared, and I won’t play tricks again.”
Terence listened to her words, and his large palm silently patted her back.
Esther thought about it and said, “Terence, I was wrong before. I didn’t think about or understand your feelings in detail. I thought that if I was pregnant, your father would bring you back to the main company happily, thinking that this would help your future. I was too self-righteous, sorry…”
“What’s wrong? Tonight is the Meeting of Regret?”
“I mean it.”
“If Mom hears what you said, do you think she will be furious?”
Esther was stunned. She looked up and stared at him in surprise. Terence chuckled and shook his head.
“So, now you know how difficult it is for me, right?” Esther sighed helplessly and disengaged herself from his embrace.
“Dear, thank you for your hard work.” Terence put down the remote control.
The TV just happened to be fixed on an entertainment channel, and the beautiful figure of Lila appeared on the TV screen.
The entertainment news was reporting a business activity in a large shopping mall in Beijing. As its spokesperson, Lila was showing off on the red carpet.
Esther looked away from the TV screen and glanced at Terence. Terence immediately switched the channel. “Just a coincidence.”
Esther pouted. “It was obviously intentional.”
“Are you jealous?”
“No.” Esther smiled. “But this woman has finally left Proley. I feel relieved.”
No wonder she hadn’t seen her looking for Terence recently. It turned out that Lila had gone to Beijing.
Terence turned to look at her. “Only those who don’t have confidence will suffer. Lila and I originally planned to continue our relationship.”
“Aren’t you the same?” Esther retorted, “How many times have I told you? I have no feelings for James. You always misunderstand that I have feelings for him.”
“You are different from James.”
“How is it different? Just because I was with him?”
“A year… It shouldn’t be considered short, right?”
“But I have my own principles.” Esther said with a serious face, “I will never forgive anyone who betrayed me, and I will never like them again. So… When I saw him having an affair with Anne, I decided not to love him anymore..”
Thinking of these, Esther was somewhat depressed, and even her voice became a little hoarse.
Of course, this did not mean that she still had feelings for James. She just sighed that the world was fickle.
“You have never experienced the feeling of being betrayed by your lover, so you don’t understand that kind of despair and pain.” She faintly added, “Fortunately, I am not that stupid. And now I have gotten over it.”