Chapter 47
Nassandra’s P. O. V.
I thought sleeping would make my heavy emotions disappear like a bursting bubble.
But no.
When I opened my eyes, I thought the thoughts and memories would be gone, but when I felt sad, scared, and angry…
I didn’t realize I was actually tearing up.
It seems like I was still in Zeke’s room.
I roamed my eyes around to look for him, but I found something else.
I bit my lip to prevent the sobs from escaping due to my crying so that I wouldn’t wake the sleeping Keian at the room’s couch.
*Sniff*
It suddenly felt difficult to breathe, so I opened my mouth to let it all out, and so here it was. My cries got loud.
“Hmmm?” I was suddenly irritated at myself when Kei woke up.
Geez, Nassandra.
His tired eyes turned to me, and he immediately stands up the moment he saw my face wet with tears.
He was about to come closer, but he stopped midway then stepped backwards.
His head was low, and he clenched his fists.
“I-I’m sorry,” His voice breaks, and he was even on the verge of crying.
I wiped away the tears on my face using my shirt while staring at him.
Then I remembered what happened at the gym…
“It’s not my intention to apply as a maid in this house. I just needed the money because Brylle was brought to the hospital.” I started, which made him look up to me.
“And since I’m a maid here, of course, I had to stay in this house. I’m very sure you’ll see me the moment you arrive back from France.” His expression softened.
“I never wanted to be involved in your mafia.”
“I was cleaning the floor when you saw me outside your room. And most especially, it was never my intention to harm manang. I was from the maid’s quarters when I saw her.” Keian’s eyebrows creased.
“I didn’t even know there’s a headquarters here before bringing manang there.”
“Then WHY?!” His voice roared into the room that made me sigh.
Do we really have to go back to asking the ‘why’ questions?
“Why was it when I first saw you, I felt something different. I felt that you would be the ‘someone’ who will give me hope. The one who will help me.” This time, it was my turn to furrow my eyebrows.
“Why is it that when you saved manang, I felt like I could trust you? That I could believe in you.” My jaw dropped at what he said.
“Why do I have to fall for you and be an idiot who hurt the one that he loves?” His grip on his own fists tightened. At the same time, I stayed frozen in my position.
“Keian…”
“Do you regret it?” His eyes showed a sad expression as he stared at me.
“Do you regret that you’re a maid in this f—ing mansion? Do you regret being a maid for me? My maid?”
I lowered my head and bit my lip.
“I don’t belong to anyone, Keian.” I softly muttered but enough for him to hear.
“So you regret it?” I shook my head continuously.
“I don’t know. I don’t know.” He came closer to me and held both of my shoulders to face him.
I suddenly remembered my dream and all the memories that came back to me. My eyes widened as I looked at Keian.
Scared that I might get hurt.
We stared at each other for a while before he drew away from me.
“I’m sorry.” As I immediately got down from the bed, my eyes widened to let him stand up from kneeling.
“H-Hey quit kneeling down.” I tried forcing him to stand up, but he’s too heavy for me.
“I’m so sorry, Nassandra. I’m so sorry that I hurt you.” He sadly spoke.
I sighed and Indian seated in front of him.
He got confused at what I did.
My knees hurt, I couldn’t kneel down.
“Sit down,” I ordered. Despite his confusion, he followed and sat in front of me. His face is still forlorn.
I held his cheeks and gently tilted it up from its lowered position, and smiled reassuringly.
“It’s not you whom I’m scared of, Keian. It’s someone that’s from my past.” Even though he couldn’t fully understand what I’m trying to say, his sad expression slowly faded away.
“What happened earlier, it’s similar to what happened four years ago.” His mouth opened as if he wanted to say something, but he closed it and let out a small smile.
“I’m still sorry, baby.” I smiled at him and nodded.
A tear escaped from my eye to which he wipes away immediately.
He stood up and carried me to place me down on the bed. Then he pins me down.
“Heyy!” I can’t help but feel all flustered. Seriously! He’s so close to me!
He was just starring at me, and slowly our lips are getting closer.
So I had no choice but to close my eyes.
But I felt his lips divert, and he pressed them on my forehead.
Oh.
He stuffed his head on my neck and wrapped his arms around my waist.
Hayssttt.
I gladly returned the cuddle.
“I also hurt them.” I blinked several times as I heard Keian speak. Is he talking to me?
“I can’t control my anger, that’s why they’re scared of me.” I was surprised at what he just admitted that I didn’t know what to reply, so I just ran my fingers through his hair.
Like what I used to do with Brylle, hehe.
“I need you, Nassandra. I know that you can help me control myself.”
“What happened in the gym is the proof that you can stop me, Nass. Normally, you’d be beaten dead by now, but when I heard that…” I looked down at him as he trailed off.
“Okay, Keian. I will help you.” He tightened his grip on me.
There was a moment of silence, and as I took a deep breath, I once again got to smell his manly perfume.
“You know, I don’t have any medical license since I never got to go to college, but I knew a lot about them because my parents were both doctors. They had their own hospital, and I mostly watch them in surgery. Then when I got older, I participate in their procedure, but they just explain them to me what it is while watching them closely.” I opened up.
“Hmmm.”
I was staring at the ceiling while a lot of questions are swimming in my mind.
“Do you think that’s illegal?” I absentmindedly asked.
“Well, me existing is already illegal, so I don’t care. As long as you’re happy with what you’re doing, you’ll hear no objections from me.” I smiled at his statement.
He was really the only one to whom I entrusted such information like that.
At least, we’re getting to know each other, and I believe that it will lead towards our trust in each other.
We stayed like that for almost 30 minutes, and we drew away when he stood up at the edge of the bed with an expressionless face.
“Let’s go.” My eyes narrowed down at him.
“Where are we going?” He pulled me out of bed by pulling my arm. Good thing it didn’t fell off.
“Meeting.” He shortly replied.
I just pouted and got out of bed.
I haven’t even stepped foot on the ground when my knee suddenly ached, which caused me to almost falling down on the floor.
Keian immediately catches me and helps me get up.
“Sh8t.” Guilt immediately filled his face as he remembered he kicked me earlier.
“I’m really sor—” He stopped speaking when I flashed him a glare.
“Stop saying sorry.” He blinked and swallowed a lump in his throat before nodding.
He carried me in bridal style and went out of Zeke’s room.
“M-Maître, Nass?” We met with Nathan outside the room, and he seemed surprised to see Keian and me.
I gave him a smile.
“Hi, Nathan. Are you done cleaning?” He glanced at the broom he was holding and slightly smiled.
“A-Ahh, yeah. I’m about to go back to the maid’s quarters.” He said, stuttering.
The nervous expression on his face made me puzzled at first, but I just decided to let it slide.
Nathan bowed before Keian then left.
We went down the stairs– he, rather, since he’s carrying me, then directly went out of the mansion.
When we arrived at the headquarters, we were shocked to see a lot of people hovering around in the middle of the night.Content rights belong to NôvelDrama.Org.
All of them greeted us as we passed by them.
As we went to the meeting room, everyone was already there. So does that girl named Clara, I think?
Mine and Zeke’s eyes met, and we just smiled at each other.
“Katie, check her injury.” Keian placed me on my usual spot whenever I came here then faced me towards Katie.
She raised her brows then smiled while walking towards me to check my ankle. That’s where Kei kicked me.
“If you want, just to make sure that she doesn’t have a broken bone, I can have an x-ray on her injury. But I guess she’s just got a sprain.” Keian nodded, then glanced at me.
“Do everything that you have to do. We’ll wait before we start the meeting.”
“Okay.”